Can you even believe it?!

Because honestly I can't myself! (yes I know not to start a sentence with 'because' lol) School is about to begin and I find myself looking forward to it! It will be wonderful to have something worthwhile to occupy my time with! I feel like summer and I have had our fun and now it's time for something serious. This summer has offered me relaxation and rejuvenation but now that's turning into boredom and frustration with the fact that I'm doing nothing with my time. During the semester I have a goal, something to accomplish, and yes, it does suck sometimes but I feel as though I've gotten to a point in my life where laziness is just not fun anymore. Yes I do enjoy my 'me' time where I can do nothing but read but then I like to rejoin the "real world". So yes, I am excited to begin the school year!

Thinking about next semester has also gotten me thinking about how I am at an age and in a position of complete freedom! That's not to say that I don't have my responsibilities but I am unattached; I have no children and no husband with whom I have to coordinate my plans. If I wanted to quit school and backpack across Europe, I could! The possibilities are endless and every door is open to me! (Now don't you worry mom and dad, I'm not quitting school lol ) It's just nice to know that the potential is there. I used to be completely obsessed with finding a boyfriend or someone to whom I could dedicate my time and love but I'm finding myself and feeling complete in and of myself without needing a significant other to complete me :D

A hard lesson has been learned in all my 22 years (almost 23!) and yes it may seem obvious but it took time for me to believe it. I don't have to settle for anyone who is not willing to invest both in me and himself as well as be mature enough to not resent any work he may have to do. I feel as if I've regained my romantic sensibilities and tempered them with a little sense! (Both Marianne AND Elinor!)

Well there's my musings for the night! Hope to hear from me soon!!!! XD lol

Books or boys?....hmmm

I've been thinking and I realized that boys and relationships can be like books! Let's say you read a book; if it was a good book, you close the back cover and sigh, remember all the good times you had and set it aside with no hard feelings AND you get to remain good friends! If it was a bad book you close the back cover and think about what could have been better, could you have done anything? Maybe been more open to the author's writings? Or was it all the book's fault? Either way you set it aside vowing that you will never go back. However, later you begin wondering if it was all a mistake and whether you should give that book another chance. See what I mean? lol One major difference though, is that books are better...sometimes...lol

Anyways...this is what comes of being hyped up on Mountain Dew and coffee from work!!! I get nostalgic dreams that lead to profound thought!

Here's to yet another day of work!

Guess who's graduating?!! ME that's who!!!

So life has been pretty crazy and hectic for the last few months and I can see the finish line (if only a temporary one...). I feel like it's starting to get to me and I refuse to let it! Little moments like when my students are understanding and engaged in a lesson I planned WHILE MY SUPERVISOR IS WATCHING! are so great and make me remember "hey! I like kids and this really IS what I want to do!" However, those moments are few and far between but can't let it knock me out!
BTW how stupid is it to be disqualified from food stamps because you're going to college full time and can't possibly work 20 hours a week (unless you want to kill yourself!)? I mean really that is completely mental! So what they are saying is that if I weren't going to school and being a bum with no job instead that I would get assistance? Really?! C'mon people! Anyway rant over...lol
So the seester might be moving out to pursue a RN down home with the parents which means either I need to find a new roommate FAST or win the lotto FAST! Honestly, I'd prefer the roommate but if fate INSISTS that I win the Lottery than who am I to argue? lol Really though...I'm kinda over this whole roommate situation, it just isn't what I want, I've moved maybe 6 times since I've been attending college and the best move has been to live with my sister! We know each other better now and just work well and live well together...I'm going to miss her (and struggle a bit without her) but I'm happy that she is going after what she wants. :)
Oooh and I met a boy! lol he's so sweet and very nice to me and my sis and friends and just such a great guy that I keep on thinking "ok, what's going on here?" could it be that he's just what he seems? A nice guy? lol

Well back to the homework! almost 10 lesson plans to spit out :P (ptui!) lol

So it's been a while.

So October has begun. The countdown is at 57 days remaining! Till my birthday that is! 22 years old!

So all I have to say right now is boys are stupid. The end.

No not really the end. I have 2 guys that I have/had a thing for (wouldn't even call it a crush). The first isn't really going anywhere or doing anything with his life. He is cute but that's about it. So we're just friends and we text a lot. Well he has this annoying habit of just dropping off the face of the earth whenever he doesn't feel up to answering a question. I ask if wanted to hang out after a long conversation and then *crickets* nothing. He texts me later as if I never even asked. I mean really? It's not like I'm asking you out sheesh! I just invited you to chill with some friends and watch a movie. If you didn't want to or don't want me to ask just let me know. It's not that hard. It's retarded is what it is. And very frustrating. Not a very nice friend at all. Then when I ask what was up you go all "Why are you asking so many questions? huh?" Really?! I mean c'mon. Chill. That's what friends do but if you don't want to that's fine with me. You just fall into the category of stupid boy.

So the other boy is at my job number 2 (the one that's actually furthering my career). He's cute and we get along really well. He's also a HUGE reader (which was a skill my ex desperately lacked). I mean how can you beat a guy who went online and purchased the Twilight series because he WANTED to read it! haha jk (he really did but that CAN be beat haha) He's very polite and talks as much as I do, if you can believe it. haha He goes to my school, is pre-law, owns his own home already and is 22! Plus he loves working with kids! haha. We're still getting to know each other, ya know chatting at work and such and I don't know his faith or anything. But he's definitely friend material if nothing else! :)

So with that in mind I have no real potential dating options, I figure now is as good a time as any to begin

BOY BOYCOTT 2009!

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